September 12, 2018

The Unbalanced Life

Back in June I shared a post on balancing my career and parenting and how the transition was going. 
I think I was still a little naive to either parenting, or reality...but there is no balance. There are some days I wake up before my alarm and am able to get a few things done- whether it's throwing in some laundry or unloading the dishwasher.
Then, there are the mornings where I snooze 5 times and rush around trying to make it out the door on time to Starbucks, because I NEED my coffee...there's no maybe- it is a necessity. 

Sometimes I drop Bella off at the sitter and drive to work in a great mood blasting all the music I can't listen to with her in the car as loud as I want and get ready for my day at work, but there's other times where she turns and pouts her lip and reaches out for me (her new thing) and I get in the car and lose it.

Whether you're a working mom or a stay at home mom or not a mom at all- there's these moments that pull at your heart strings. They come and go, and they're not always at the moments you're expecting them to happen. That's only part of my unbalanced life.

In reality, or what I've come to notice about my life- there is no complete balance. There are plenty of times in the past few weeks that I've looked at my to- do list and cried my eyes out, feeling completely overwhelmed. Those are the times I try to pull myself together, because there's no time to sulk at the things that need to get done. Days in a row can go by without getting things knocked off the list, and that's usually when Bella is teething or we need to prep Ethan for school and work on special things. Those days are okay. They may not be mega-successful in terms of looking at my planner, but those days are still meaningful.

When I'm at work, I'm focused on doing the best job I can and learning all the new skills I need to succeed in my career. I always look forward to 4:30 and getting to walk in the door at home to see my baby's smiling face, hear about Ethan's day and catch up with Chuck. 

My family comes first, always. So that may mean I didn't study enough for a test in the few hours I allotted to do that, the kitchen may have dishes still left out everywhere, and I may have a pounding headache...but family comes first.

It's my unbalanced, not always perfect, but my amazing, full of beautiful moments life. 
Thanks for reading friends, hope you have a beautiful day!

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