Today's a great day, because it's my birthday! That may sound a little crazy, but hear me out---I love celebrating...ANYTHING. I'm always down for a good time, some balloons, and a cocktail or two.
I thought I would share some lessons learned over the past year, because what's getting another year older if you're not getting wiser?!
Time doesn't heal all wounds, but it's okay.
So many people told me when my Mom passed away that life would get easier as time went on. Those people haven't walked in my shoes. I think in fact, it's harder. To realize what I put her through now that I'm a parent makes me appreciate her a million times more, and she's not here to pay back. The path through of life is more vivid now that I'm an adult and seeing all the things she could be a part of and isn't is really tough. I try not to dwell on it, because that's no way to live life and she wouldn't want me to. Rather, I am trying to continue to find myself, be over the moon happy and live this beautiful life in a great way each and every day.
Slowing down isn't a bad thing.
I've learned to say no and not over commit myself. I go to bed earlier. I don't go to the bar every weekend. They say slowing down is a sign of getting older, well that's okay by me. I used to feel very stressed when I would say yes to everything that came up. I felt like I had to. Saying no and slowing down has made me much more calm and it doesn't mean I'm a bad person. Slowing down, looking around and enjoying what's around me is really great.
Hard work pays off.
It's not always who you know. The old fashioned hard work does matter. I've always believed that in the end your hard work will pay off, and it rang true this year. I've worked my butt off to be where I am, and while my vision isn't the same one others may see...I am happy. Dream big, but work for what you want. Success comes when you put in the hours and get after it.
I used to dream of being a writer for a magazine in NYC. Now, I dream of a nice house with a goldendoodle and taking trips to beautiful places I never thought I could. My dreams consist of helping make the ones I love dreams come true too. Ethan's dream a few years ago was to swim with dolphins. Seeing his face when we went to the Bahamas and hug that dolphin made every penny worth it. My dreams came true becoming a wife too, because I never thought I could find someone to put up with my crazy ass. Seriously, I didn't have little girl dreams of a wedding and wearing a white dress...I literally thought it was out of my reach. That changed when I met Chuck, and now that man who is my husband helps me continue to dream big.
I don't mind getting older.
I love sitting in on a Saturday night and hanging out watching a movie. Grocery shopping on a Friday night sounds peaceful. I also have really found out who I am and love owning every piece of me. I'm not ashamed to admit I'm loud and bold...it's me. I love hard, I dream big, I get excited about really little things...but it's who I am. I'm still learning lessons and finding out things the hard way, but that's a part of it all in the end. The journey is wonderful. Life is great, and I can't wait to see what this next year brings.
Thank you all for being a part of my journey. I'm seriously a lucky woman and when I step back and look at how my life is going, I'm extremely thankful for every moment...big and small. I appreciate you taking the time to come here and read what I have to say...if you take one thing away from any of this...Dream BIG friends. XO!