November 26, 2014

What I'm Thankful For Wednesday

I'm sure I won't be the only one sharing my thankful thoughts in the next few days, but I just can't help it. When you stop and look around, life is really an awesome gift.

I am a person that suffers from anxiety. Often times this anxiety leads to me expressing my worries in ways that are not effective or healthy. I complain, I whine, I yell. One thing that I always want to work on is dealing with my anxiety and the stress that comes from it in a positive way. It's an evolving process that I hope only gets better with time.

The reason I share this with you is to tell you that there is another side of me that is extremely grateful for things to the point of giddiness. Anxiety has helped me cherish these gifts and moments because I don't have to stress about these particular things.

It is probably very evident that I am thankful for my fiance Chuck. Words can't express what he does for me or how he helps me. He does the unthinkable things that I don't even have to ask him to do. Without me blinking an eye or opening my mouth to seek his help, he is there. That is a true partner. He has dealt with some of the most raw and painful moments I've experienced and been by my side through each and every one, sometimes when I'm kicking and screaming.

I am thankful for Ethan, but not just because he is adorable and awesome. Ethan has taught me to be more patient. Raising a ten year old boy has proven to be difficult, trying, and has also showed me that love conquers all. Ethan is a handful, but not in all the bad ways. He has energy, a positive fun loving attitude and even some days when he tries to act older than his age and have some smart comments his kind and caring heart prove he is the little sweatheart I have always adored. I am thankful for what he has taught me and that I haven't even had the chance for him to fully understand what he has done for me.

I am thankful for my family. It is untraditional, scattered, but everything I could hope for. Losing my mom was the worst thing that ever happened to me, but of course, even that helped me. I matured at a young age and learned to be a fighter. I am bold and independent and can thank the difficult times for molding me in to the woman I am. My family has supported my rash decisions, my indecisiveness, and always had my happiness in mind. I used to be sad that my parents didn't stay together, but I have learned to embrace the unique family I am blessed with.

Some days I complain about my job, compare myself to people my age with huge houses, wonder what it would be like to have children of my own already, and wish I didn't have a crazy amount of student loans to pay.
I am lucky to have a job to drive to every morning in the car that I can pay for. I love our home because it is our place to build all these moments in. Some day I will have a little love that will share the Lawrence name and those student loans will be gone.

For now, I am learning to live in the moment. I have accomplished things I never thought I would, this blog being one of them. It seems so simple and easy, but it was a huge dream of mine for a long time. I am a blogger and I love being able to say that. I wake up happy and I appreciate the small moments like eating dinner together as a family each night.

I am thankful to be alive and healthy.
Thank you for your support of this blog and for reading.

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Happy Thanksgiving everyone!


  1. The Sequin NotebookNovember 26, 2014 at 8:43 AM

    Beautiful post, and a great reminder of being thankful for the things we tend to take for granted on a daily basis. Have a wonderful Thanksgiving!

  2. What a superb post. You are always so honest and true, I'm sure I'm not the only one that is inspired by you and your writing. I hope you, Chuck and Ethan enjoy every moment of Thanksgiving!

  3. Thank you so much E. It feels good to "write it out". I hope you had an amazing Thanksgiving. I am thankful for our friendship! XO :)

  4. Thank you SO much. I hope you ladies had an amazing Thanksgiving!